http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/en-EUMokoFeed10http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/84/5489c5377f14c321f755e2de366df5_160x200.jpghttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/11/02/easy-money-4970651/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2008-11-02:/2008/11/02/easy-money-4970651/Sun, 02 Nov 2008 16:12:14 +0100 <p>I haven't written in ages. Not been busy either! currently waiting to start work at a court so i've had alot of time on my hands.. anyway if anyone wants to earn some money by doin surveys i found a cool site <a href="http://my.yougov.com/go.aspx?id=71a1683b-dec7-48dc-8094-fe12575f193a">http://my.yougov.com/go.aspx?id=71a1683b-dec7-48dc-8094-fe12575f193a</a><br> you get some credit for each survey, say like £1, then when you get up to £50 they send you a cheque! easy money. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/11/02/easy-money-4970651/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/11/02/easy-money-4970651/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/03/04/-3815510/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2008-03-04:/2008/03/04/-3815510/Tue, 04 Mar 2008 14:41:10 +0100 <p>I'm ill today off school. I hate being off now because it means I have to catch up on work and I'm trying so hard now because I really want to get into my uni choice. I'm still happy despite being ill because I started my new job last weekend, my first day was awful, no-one talked to me and it was just generally a bad day. But then sunday was really good<img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"> I started chatting to people and met a guy that hopefully I'll get to know more. He's like the perfect bloke, really easy to chat to, hes really good with people I could see that from him talking to the customers really well, he's funny, he's real positive too, good looking.. AND drives a ferrari! I'll just let you all know that I only found out about the ferrari after I thought he was nice so thats not what I like, don't want to be seen as a gold digger! Anywho... Just needed to rant somewhere cause I think my friends are getting annoyed with me talking about him alot hehe </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/03/04/-3815510/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/03/04/-3815510/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/29/do_this_pleasee~3651507/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2008-01-29:/2008/01/29/do_this_pleasee~3651507/Tue, 29 Jan 2008 21:17:25 +0100 <p>please can people do this survey for me I need 14 more people to do it<img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> and hopefully will get a variety of ages <a href="http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=fQq1ZErGTFDJNd8ICZcZGw_3d_3d">Click Here to take survey</a> its for my courswork </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/29/do_this_pleasee~3651507/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/29/do_this_pleasee~3651507/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/04/love_triangle_please_i_need_advice~3529672/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2008-01-04:/2008/01/04/love_triangle_please_i_need_advice~3529672/Fri, 04 Jan 2008 22:05:12 +0100 <p>got a bit of a love triangle (more like a octagon) going on and I hate it.<br> So... At a party last night me and martin got pretty close, nothing happend cause I was still with kenny but we both like each other, so I had to finish kenny tonight, it really wasnt working anyway. Then all this stuff comes out that my ex rob still has feelings for me (even though he dumped me, said I was annoying, liked some other girl and insults me all the time whenever we all go out), and that is always a kick in the crotch cause I have to try so hard not to go back to him, so martin wont let anything happen with me and him because rob and him are friends and some other guys said they think its out of order and will stand on robs side. Rob also likes naomi (naomi is my friend) naomi likes rob too, but rob won't ask her out because of his feelings for me (grr hes annoying). but what the hell!!! rob just has to come back and haunt me doesnt he, and I know hes not right for me although somewhere inside I do want him back. It seems one minute i was really happy and excited about me and martin then the next it was all taken away from me by the guy who hurt me in the past! Its so f*cked up! advice please? I feel so down and angry yet confused still about rob. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/04/love_triangle_please_i_need_advice~3529672/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/04/love_triangle_please_i_need_advice~3529672/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/03/then_and_now~3525133/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2008-01-03:/2008/01/03/then_and_now~3525133/Thu, 03 Jan 2008 22:18:37 +0100 <p>i hate it when you read back over your blog. how young and niave i used to be! my lifes much better now! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/03/then_and_now~3525133/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/03/then_and_now~3525133/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/03/~3524968/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2008-01-03:/2008/01/03/~3524968/Thu, 03 Jan 2008 21:33:16 +0100 <p>i'm fed up. i revise but my eyes feel strained and hurt, so i stop and then i freak out because i'm going to fail these exams. anyone got a cure for strained eyes cause i always get it and its doing my head in. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/03/~3524968/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2008/01/03/~3524968/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/12/11/havent_writen_in_so_long~3428986/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-12-11:/2007/12/11/havent_writen_in_so_long~3428986/Tue, 11 Dec 2007 18:49:12 +0100 <p>wow i havent written in agesssss. not really got much to say either<img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> how boring... erm... ooo i applied to uni the other month i applied at chester, coventry, bangor, glamorgan and keele. if anyone has been or heard anything about any of these unis please tell me which one to choose! i got offers from them all<img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"> so now all i need is the grades! that means my social life is down the pan! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/12/11/havent_writen_in_so_long~3428986/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/12/11/havent_writen_in_so_long~3428986/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/09/20/please_do_this~3014561/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-09-20:/2007/09/20/please_do_this~3014561/Thu, 20 Sep 2007 22:05:02 +0200 <p>i know i asked before but please fill this very short survey in for me. I had to change my last idea because of an annoying teacher so this is my new coursework and I need market research. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"> thank you everyone<img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"> heres the link:</p> <p><a href="http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=fQq1ZErGTFDJNd8ICZcZGw_3d_3d">http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=fQq1ZErGTFDJNd8ICZcZGw_3d_3d</a> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/09/20/please_do_this~3014561/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/09/20/please_do_this~3014561/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/08/19/really_need_opinions_help~2835616/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-08-19:/2007/08/19/really_need_opinions_help~2835616/Sun, 19 Aug 2007 22:09:46 +0200 <p>I'll start at the begining. My friend sarah (although she has stabed me in the back that i have writen about in previous posts) has a boyfriend called mike, until recently he worked at Iceland with me sarah, dave, soph and sophs mum (as well as other people but these are just the ones included in this). Dave and mike went on holiday a while ago with some other of their mates and today sophie swears me to secracy and then tells me that her mum told her mike cheated on sarah on this holiday. Her mum heard it from dave.</p> <p>So now i have to make the decision of telling sarah or not. I feel the right thing to do is to tell her because he can't love her if he did that, and theres no saying he won't do it again. But on the other hand if i do mike and sarah will split up, mike will hate me and probably know it was dave who blabed so fall out with him, sophs mum and soph will also be in trouble with dave, but ultimately it all comes down to mikes fault but people never see it that way do they. Also there is no way of telling that sarah will actually believe me, or mike could just say dave was lieing and dave might actually say he was, or dave could actually of been lieing about it, i wouldn't put it past him.. </p> <p>What does everyone think i should do? I can't go and tell mike i know because then people who i found out through will still get into trouble and he might just deny it, what proof will i have? I might believe him. I can't go and ask dave if its true either because firstly we're not talking and secondly he could just deny it aswell. I need some way of getting them to tell me the truth, but without anyone else finding out that i know. Any suggestions?</p> <p>also I'll add that I don't know if sarah would tell me the truth if it was me being cheated on, shes chosen not to get into trouble over telling me stuff before. But is being a good person different from treating people the same way they treat you? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/08/19/really_need_opinions_help~2835616/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/08/19/really_need_opinions_help~2835616/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/08/07/holy~2771272/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-08-07:/2007/08/07/holy~2771272/Tue, 07 Aug 2007 20:00:31 +0200 <p>but not in the religious sence, actually i've just got holes in me. One in my arm, one in my hand and a giant gash on the crease under my breast!</p> <p>I don't think i wrote that i was going to have it in my blog but i had an operation yesterday to take a giant fibro somthing lump out of my breast. The holey hand is where they put a valve type thing to inject me with stuff and to put a drip if i needed it, the arm is where they took yet again MORE blood, and obviously the gash is how they took the lump out. </p> <p>My friends have been good. But Dave has been pissing me off so much lately. He didnt bother to text me like everyone else did last night after my op so I text him sayin I'm still alive thanks for asking, and he reckoned he didnt know it was today, but I just told him he could of asked when it was when hes always using the excuse that he doesn't have anything to talk to me about when he ignores me on msn, he knew I was having the op because I was with him when I was having consultations and stuff. And even now he hasn't botherd to ask me about it checking I'm ok or anything. So all that stuff about wanting us to be really good friends was just bullshit. I reckon the only people he tries to keep in his life are the ones that will benefit him in some way, he wanted me there before he got back with his ex (who hes with now) but now that he dont need me under the thumb anymore to flirt with and make him feel like hes worth anything he doesn't bother with me at all. Unless hes bored in work and looking for someone to playfight with. Oh well hes a dick. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/08/07/holy~2771272/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/08/07/holy~2771272/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/21/stressful~2678196/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-07-21:/2007/07/21/stressful~2678196/Sat, 21 Jul 2007 22:59:46 +0200 <p>Very stressful day today I nearly cried! Pathetic really.</p> <p>I had lots of awkward customers at the very end of the day. I put £100 vouchers through as cash by accident and I didn't put a home delievery through as a home delivery<img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> luckily Keith saved my bacon on the last thing by helping me out. </p> <p>I hate it when you have one or two customers still casually walking round the shop at 6pm when your supposed to be closed and your stuck on the till not even getting paid for serving this last customer. The manager has come up with some ways to try and get it through the customer's heads that we are closing. He'll either stand by the door tapping it with his keys, yell down the shop to the workers 'does anyone want any shopping before I take the tills off?' or other things of that nature like 'Liam come take Sarah's till off now please!' Then we always have a little moan about them.</p> <p>So people! If you don't want to be moaned about by the shop workers, keep an eye on the time for Gods sake! I don't get paid for you to be slow! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/21/stressful~2678196/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/21/stressful~2678196/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/18/tanning_and_jeans~2658868/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-07-18:/2007/07/18/tanning_and_jeans~2658868/Wed, 18 Jul 2007 18:00:51 +0200 <p>I'm in a really good mood<img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"> I shouldn't be really.. Had a boring day worked basicly none stop in school, I'm such a good pupil. </p> <p>I also noticed in the day that I had dyed some of my nails and hand a very dodgy looking brown from using that l'oreal moisturiser with a hint of tan last night. I seem to just stay white or go streaky when ever I use those tanners... Don't know why I bother really. It's a catch 22 situation with those things, if you don't use it you can't wear skirts and shorts etc because your as white as a sheet but if you do then you can't shave your legs well because it comes off in the foam! So you end up dry shaving and getting little red lumps and cuts everywhere that don't look nice so you cover up anyway, thankfully it's been very rainy recently so I end up in jeans anyway after all this. Who ever invented jeans should of been knighted. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/18/tanning_and_jeans~2658868/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/18/tanning_and_jeans~2658868/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/17/arg~2653440/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-07-17:/2007/07/17/arg~2653440/Tue, 17 Jul 2007 19:58:07 +0200 <p>why won't it let me upload a photo?! It keeps saying its a wrong file type! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/17/arg~2653440/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/17/arg~2653440/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/17/~2653376/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-07-17:/2007/07/17/~2653376/Tue, 17 Jul 2007 19:49:52 +0200 <p>Can't get used to this new website design. A simple layout change throws me all out of whack. What does whack even mean? I will try to start blogging more. Nothing interesting seems to be happening really though. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/17/~2653376/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/17/~2653376/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/10/hey_everyone_do_me_a_big_favour~2611573/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-07-10:/2007/07/10/hey_everyone_do_me_a_big_favour~2611573/Tue, 10 Jul 2007 21:20:21 +0200 <p>please will people fill out my questionaire for my business studies corsework? </p> <p><a href="http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=GflEwED1awJZcOms4FXKSg_3d_3d">http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=GflEwED1awJZcOms4FXKSg_3d_3d</a></p> <p>Its only 10 questions long, I want as many people with different ages and tastes etc to fill it out so the people marking will say I've done enough market research. </p> <p>Please help! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/10/hey_everyone_do_me_a_big_favour~2611573/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/10/hey_everyone_do_me_a_big_favour~2611573/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/03/havent_wrote_in_ages~2567208/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-07-03:/2007/07/03/havent_wrote_in_ages~2567208/Tue, 03 Jul 2007 18:51:10 +0200 <p>Hmm.. Not really alot going on.. Daves back from holiday tonight which sucks cause I can't pretend he doesn't exist anymore, he'll be on msn all the time and I'll have to see him in work still, any suggestions on what to do? I don't want those feelings to come back.</p> <p>I don't think I've ever wrote about this girl I know called Sarah before.. So I'll start now.. </p> <p>If you've ever seen 'mean girls' its her all over. All my friends and I have hated her for years but you just cannot get rid of her! People don't understand until they know her properly, she always weasles her way back in the group, one person at a time.<br> She finds out your secrets and holds them against you. She uses people. She makes little comments all the time to make you feel small anything she can think of for example to me she still randomly brings up the fact that when I was going out with mark about 4 years ago he only went out with me to start with because he wanted to make sarah jelous! I mean it was four years ago! It doesn't bother me anymore because I'm waaaaay over him but she does it because she thinks it does hurt. To erica she randomly brings up that I used to hate erica like she'll say something like 'remember when sarah used to hate you?' and that was even longer ago! Another example is when she came into our law lesson last tuesday she sat down and first thing she says to me is 'I think it's funny how EVERYONE forgot your birthday even though you kept going on about it for weeks' what is the need for her to say that??? It wasn't even true!</p> <p>Yeah well the point of bringing her up was that she's finally pushed me over the edge and shes out. For good this time, now she's someone elses problem. She is a compulsive liar and can normally make all the bitchy things she does seem innocent like she causes upset because of something she lied about but she turns it round to make it look like she wasnt lieing and that it was all just taken in the wrong way. I can't explain it, no-one ever understands until they know her, and when they do they normally comment on the way she is to us even before we've warned them. </p> <p>This time though she has no excuse. I don't know if I wrote about it but me and lee are getting close again, I think I made a mistake when I said I couldn't be with him, but anyway, she was at this girl emilys house on saturday night (that she left my birthday meal early without even eating to go to) emily is her boyfriend's (mike's) friend and mike is also lee's friend, so lee was there with aload of lee's mates. Sarah made up all this really random stuff about me to I guess make lee and lees friends hate me.. </p> <p>She said that I was talking about getting back with Dave,<br> that I showed all my friends a text off lee and said 'see look he does still want me' like I'm just playing him which he already is scared of,<br> and she also said that I was seeing my friend Adam before I got with Dave and never really finished it with Adam. I hadn't been with Adam for like a year now! It was ages before Dave and I hardly see Adam now because he's gone to college.</p> <p>So I got random texts off lee asking what happend with Adam and if I'd been talking about getting back with Dave. He's said he believes me that shes lieing but his friends won't because they don't know her enough to hate her yet, they are still at the stage where shes nice and they believe her. So his friends have like warned him off me! I don't know what to do! </p> <p>Most my mates have fallen out with Sarah too because they have all basicly been looking for an excuse for ages and sarah and hayley had a fight the other week too. I keep wishing she'd come and try to talk to me like she normally does when anyone falls out with her so I can punch her in the face, hate her so much.</p> <p>Why is she so spiteful! Why make up lies purely to mess things up for someone? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/03/havent_wrote_in_ages~2567208/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>shallow-or-whathttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/07/03/havent_wrote_in_ages~2567208/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/20/hmm_could_this_be_a_decision_that_will_w~2489618/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-06-20:/2007/06/20/hmm_could_this_be_a_decision_that_will_w~2489618/Wed, 20 Jun 2007 21:19:39 +0200 <p>I've been thinking about it all evening... I think now what I will do is get an extra job this summer to earn plenty of money then next summer I'll go to australia to visit Jessie for a month, I'll put in applications for uni and for fire and police service because they are recruiting begining of 2008 (does anyone know if that means they will not accept me right away because I won't be 18 yet or will they let me join once I am? which will be next June, does this question even make sence?)</p> <p>Yeah so anyway if I don't get accepted into police or fire I'll go off to uni. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/20/hmm_could_this_be_a_decision_that_will_w~2489618/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/20/hmm_could_this_be_a_decision_that_will_w~2489618/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/20/i_hate_important_decisions~2488844/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-06-20:/2007/06/20/i_hate_important_decisions~2488844/Wed, 20 Jun 2007 19:10:27 +0200 <p>I'm very very frightend</p> <p>The time is nearing that I have to decide what university corse to take, or whether to have a gap year.. I don't know what I want to be in life. But I don't want to be anything ordinary. So I was toying with the idea of fire fighter. But I doubt I'd get in and so would need something to back me up in case I don't but then I would have all the debts from uni for nothing.</p> <p>I also liked the idea of being a dancer you know in those music videos or something but that dream is kind of dashed because people dance from like age 3 and no way have I had or can ever get that kind of training now. The same with drama. Because I gave it up when I moved countries. I used to love being in panto. I hate that its too late now.</p> <p>Don't know what to do<img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/20/i_hate_important_decisions~2488844/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/20/i_hate_important_decisions~2488844/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/13/mad~2448599/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-06-13:/2007/06/13/mad~2448599/Wed, 13 Jun 2007 22:27:01 +0200 <p>I let myself down. I fell for Dave AGAIN we had to spend an evening in work together because I hadn't got a till. That is the first time we'd really had a laugh and spent time together since he dumped me. And we both said afterwards that it brought back feelings and stuff. </p> <p>blah blah blah to cut a long story short I thought i was in love with him again and still he was saying we couldn't be together for now after everything he said a few days after he'd finished me about it being a mistake and shit.</p> <p>He can't of regreted it that much or he would have got me back right then, right?</p> <p>He's still been saying he hopes we do get back together. And tonight I find out he's been textin his ex. And they've been saying how they want to get back together. So what am i?</p> <p>I've never been this angry at any boy before (because thats what he is a stupid little boy) normally with guys I try to keep my dignity and take the high road but not now. Now i'm going to fuck up his head like he did mine</p> <p>sorry for being so angry. Hope you don't all think I'm a phsyco, you probably do.. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/13/mad~2448599/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/13/mad~2448599/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/04/stupid_tv~2395155/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-06-04:/2007/06/04/stupid_tv~2395155/Mon, 04 Jun 2007 21:09:24 +0200 <p>I wish they wouldn't put things about how easy it is to do terrorism, I hate to think terrorists could be watching it. Theres something on TV now about how bad airline security is and how easy it is now for terrorists. But HELLO!!! They may not of known securtity was bad until they saw this and now they think... Hmm OK cool they won't detect my bombs. If anything I think it will cause more attacks and give the terrorists more confidence than the actual security problems would, since they wouldn't know about them.</p> <p>Anyway bored of that rant now. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/04/stupid_tv~2395155/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/06/04/stupid_tv~2395155/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/ill~2360820/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-05-30:/2007/05/30/ill~2360820/Wed, 30 May 2007 13:45:45 +0200 <p>Why do I always get colds in the summer? Anyway... </p> <p>It was Lollys party on monday night, was really fun her parents were away and we had gate crashers so police ended up there. I was so trashed me and erica just sat there laughing. </p> <p>Lee was there and we got together but then I had to say last night I don't want to be with anyone for a while but we can still go to the cinema and stuff because thats what we had planned to do. </p> <p>Dave's sniffing around me again. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/ill~2360820/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/30/ill~2360820/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/24/lee~2327782/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-05-24:/2007/05/24/lee~2327782/Thu, 24 May 2007 18:55:47 +0200 <p>Went into town with Lee for a bit today. It was fun we had a laugh. We had a serious converstation last night about what wer're going to do. We came to the conclusion that Lee was going to talk to Dave about it first then we'd see what happens. I just hope Dave isn't going to stand the way to prevent me from being happy with someone else. Hope he doesn't want me to be all alone. </p> <p>I should be revising. It's not like theres anything else to do. I've just got a bad case of the 'I can't be arseds'. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/24/lee~2327782/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/24/lee~2327782/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/22/psychology_exam_over~2315674/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-05-22:/2007/05/22/psychology_exam_over~2315674/Tue, 22 May 2007 19:00:03 +0200 <p>Psychology exam over<img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"> ANNND I think I did quite well!!! Was pretty easy, despite being dumped the night before, I'm proud. </p> <p>It was so long though! over 3 hours. I feel sorry for the invigulators they jus stand there for 3 hours doing nothing whereas we actually have stuff to do. </p> <p>Two of them were pacing up and down in black and white jumpers looked like bar codes and reminded me of work. It's going to be a bit awkward again now. Even more so because it's over for good, he isn't saying this time that he might be back with me soon. I just don't want to think of him any more, want to be able to concentrate on the good things. Like Lee. But even then when I imagine myself with someone its always Dave, he's all I've know for ages. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/22/psychology_exam_over~2315674/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/22/psychology_exam_over~2315674/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/21/again_why~2311240/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-05-21:/2007/05/21/again_why~2311240/Mon, 21 May 2007 22:35:27 +0200 <p>Thank God blog.co.uk is working again now. I sat for 2 and a half hours today doing general studies. It was rubbish. I got home and started trying to finish off my psychology revision. </p> <p>THEN</p> <p>Dave comes online says the same thing AGAIN:</p> <p>Dave: i need to talk to you<br> me: what this time? ((I knew he was going to dump me again this is what he said the first time))<br> Dave: whats that supposed to mean?<br> me: your going to dump me<br> Dave: would it be best if I explained on here?<br> me: so you are<br> Dave: I'm sorry</p> <p>Well sorry isn't bloody good enough! Night before my first proper exam and he does this. If he took any notice of me he would of known it was my exam tomorrow. He then went on to say that 'things had changed' well they must of changed just over the weekend because he certainly wanted me on friday. </p> <p>Anyway I don't hang around after the second chance if he wants me back again he can go **** himself. I still liked Lee the whole time I was back with him anyway. Ohh I sound such a bitch, but I can't help it I'm so angry, how am I supposed to concentrate on revision?</p> <p>On a lighter note I swear I must have amazing intuition or I am psychic or something silly like that. I knew he was going to do this ever since yesterday or maybe before, even though there wouldn't of been any clues yesterday because he was out. I don't know, maybe it's because I'm a cancer, we have very good intuition.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/21/again_why~2311240/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/21/again_why~2311240/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/zombies_and_more_vouchers~2289070/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-05-17:/2007/05/17/zombies_and_more_vouchers~2289070/Thu, 17 May 2007 21:54:35 +0200 <p>I had a whole day of R.S today... Can't wait to drop it it was so stressful, everyone in my class acting the clown and stoping us getting through the material meaning we have to come back for ANOTHER day. Now I'm stressed again because this keyboard is broken, and pressing the space bar is a difficult task.. </p> <p>I thought I would be safe when I was on the bus going home I thought yes it's time to relax, I was woken from my daydream by banging and yelling on the bus windows. It was upper 6th form's last day and so to celebrate they decided to bang on the door and windows of the bus scaring the grannies, it looked like something from 'dawn of the dead'.</p> <p>Well after I had my rant yesterday about vouchers guess what I got in the post! Vouchers! Except these are the good kind that give you like 2 free Tae kwon-do lesson, not that I am ever going to use them, it's just nice to know I have them if I ever decided I wanted to do tae kwon-do on some crazy whim. I got half way though the vouchers and was just thinking hey these are quite good after seeing 2 games for the price of one at lazer quest (thats a fun thing to do, if you haven't been, go) but then you'll never guess what I saw...</p> <p>£2 OFF AT HMV WHEN YOU SPEND £20 OR MORE</p> <p>I was mad. What a waste of paper, poor trees. Seriously if I can't spend a free £10 voucher on any crap there when the hell am I going to spend £20 just to get £2 free? I bet I could find £2 on the floor, and I would still have the £20. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/zombies_and_more_vouchers~2289070/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/17/zombies_and_more_vouchers~2289070/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/16/vouchers~2282811/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-05-16:/2007/05/16/vouchers~2282811/Wed, 16 May 2007 20:45:11 +0200 <p>Psychology exam is getting closer.. And I've only revised one topic. I'm in school all day tomorrow for R.S and working friday, saturday and sunday, got my general studies exam on monday then psychology on tuesday. I'm doomed. I've got no chance at revising all this. Please excuse my language, I do normally try to not swear on here but SHIT.</p> <p>On a lighter note<img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0">.. Hopefully me and some of the girls will be going on holiday after the exams<img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"> only to wales though so its not like its anywhere good. (Sorry welsh people I'm just joking love wales really).</p> <p>I sat on a pretend jury today in the crown court for a law trip, it was boring and I couldn't feel my bum afterwards the benches were so old and hard, how can juries sit there day after day? Anyway my suffering was not in vain because they gave us all a £10 gift voucher each for HMV. Why are vouchers always for HMV? Why don't they get them for somewhere good? Twice a year I get a HMV voucher off my brother. I went in earlier to try and spend it but there was nothing I wanted, see you can't even find anything to get when trading standards is paying (they organaised it). HMV deduct any unused balance off your gift card after 2 years, maybe thats their cunning plan, someone buys you the voucher then you never use it so they get the money for nothing! Well thats not going to work with me! No way. I'm too smart.. I'm going to save my voucher to give to someone else for their birthday.</p> <p>Why do people buy vouchers anyway? Whats the point when you can use cash anywhere, and it costs the same amount. When I'm an aunty (because aunties give rubbishy vouchers) I'll tell my nieces and nephews that I got them a special voucher that can be used absolutely anywhere, and then hand them a fiver, I bet in no time I'll become the faveourite aunt even if what other aunts were giving was £10 vouchers (because they will only be for somewhere stupid like GAP or if they are trying to say they understand youth today, HMV again). </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/16/vouchers~2282811/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/16/vouchers~2282811/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/14/exams~2268875/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-05-14:/2007/05/14/exams~2268875/Mon, 14 May 2007 17:34:06 +0200 <p>Had my first exam today<img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> 5 more to go<img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> It was only general studies today but it was actually quite hard, oh well general studies doesn't matter anyway. I spent most of the exam laughing to myself because my paper kept falling off the table, now that doesn't really sound funny but in a room full of silent people with heads down anything is funny.</p> <p>I should be revising.. It's not even like I have anything better to be doing, just writing on here, I just never have enough motivation to revise.. Maybe later.</p> <p>Anyway thats enough of a rant for today. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/14/exams~2268875/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/14/exams~2268875/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/06/lazy_weekend~2221422/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-05-06:/2007/05/06/lazy_weekend~2221422/Sun, 06 May 2007 18:19:07 +0200 <p>I've had an extremely lazy weekend. The hospital rang on tuesday and said they could fit me in to have a look at the lump in my breast on friday. So I couldn't work friday. Hospital confirmed what my doctor said that its just a fibroidy thingy, and they did a biopsy just to test that it wasn't this rare cancer so I'm not worried and should be getting those results back in about a week. The biopsy didn't really hurt because I had anerstetic (it's where they take some of the fluid out of the cyst to test it) but the doctor said I will be sore for a few days so I took saturday off work too, and Dave came round at half 1 when he finished work to look after me<img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>Because my lump is so big they recomended I get it removed, so thats happening in July so it's after my exams. I have to be put to sleep (which I HATE) for the operation and I'm going to have a scar<img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> they said my breast will look a bit like it has had a chunk out of it for a while because the cyst has pushed the tissue away but it should fill out.. So I've done nothing all weekend<img src="/img/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="middle" border="0"> not looking forward to this operation though<img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/06/lazy_weekend~2221422/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/06/lazy_weekend~2221422/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/02/title~2198962/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-05-02:/2007/05/02/title~2198962/Wed, 02 May 2007 20:16:10 +0200 <p>Sooo.. I just got in with my blistered feet and sunburnt back. No I wasn't walking up mountains all day. The blisterd feet came from new summer shoes that I wore 4 days ago, and I'm still limping. The sunburnt back came from lying in the school field all day, well I had free periods all morning and only one lesson which was at 1pm so I had 5 hours to waste in the sun. Summer sucks already.</p> <p>I've done many more stupid things today, if I told you the stupid things I do everyday it would be like a novel, but I forget them because I do them so often. </p> <p>On the field today I had a yazoo chocolate milkshake that I had to get because all the other drinks in the vending machine were sold out, typical. It was discusting so I poured it onto the grass and said to a few of my friends 'haha lets wait and see what idiot sits on it when the rest of them come'.</p> <p>So everyone else came and the milkshake was forgotten about.. I went to the canteen for some food, came back and lay on my sports leadership t-shirt in the glass. About an hour or so later I moved.. And guess what... I had lay in the milkshake, my t-shirt was coverd in brown and it had soaked right through to the top I was wearing <img src="/img/smilies/icon_sad.gif" alt=":(" class="middle" border="0"> not happy. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/02/title~2198962/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/05/02/title~2198962/#commentshttp://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/04/21/don_t_know_what_to_do~2135759/tag:life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk,2007-04-21:/2007/04/21/don_t_know_what_to_do~2135759/Sat, 21 Apr 2007 23:56:47 +0200 <p>Me and David are back together. He was telling me last night how he wish he hadn't finished me and it was a mistake etc. Then tonight he asked for me back. He told me the problem. He's been making himself sick. I never thought it could be something like this he's always going on about how he hates the way he looks and thinks he's fat when he isn't and stuff but I never thought he'd actually do anything like that. Now i feel so bad for not thinking a problem was a good excuse. I feel even worse for thinking about his friend Lee, and I feel bad to Lee that I'm back with David now. </p> <p>I have no idea how to help David through this I tell him everything I know from psychology but it doesn't change him hating the way he looks. I don't know what to do. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/04/21/don_t_know_what_to_do~2135759/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>http://life-of-cocky.blog.co.uk/2007/04/21/don_t_know_what_to_do~2135759/#comments