I'm ill today off school. I hate being off now because it means I have to catch up on work and I'm trying so hard now because I really want to get into my uni choice. I'm still happy despite being ill because I started my new job last weekend, my first day was awful, no-one talked to me and it was just generally a bad day. But then sunday was really good I started chatting to people and met a guy that hopefully I'll get to know more. He's like the perfect bloke, really easy to chat to, hes really good with people I could see that from him talking to the customers really well, he's funny, he's real positive too, good looking.. AND drives a ferrari! I'll just let you all know that I only found out about the ferrari after I thought he was nice so thats not what I like, don't want to be seen as a gold digger! Anywho... Just needed to rant somewhere cause I think my friends are getting annoyed with me talking about him alot hehe

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got a bit of a love triangle (more like a octagon) going on and I hate it.
So... At a party last night me and martin got pretty close, nothing happend cause I was still with kenny but we both like each other, so I had to finish kenny tonight, it really wasnt working anyway. Then all this stuff comes out that my ex rob still has feelings for me (even though he dumped me, said I was annoying, liked some other girl and insults me all the time whenever we all go out), and that is always a kick in the crotch cause I have to try so hard not to go back to him, so martin wont let anything happen with me and him because rob and him are friends and some other guys said they think its out of order and will stand on robs side. Rob also likes naomi (naomi is my friend) naomi likes rob too, but rob won't ask her out because of his feelings for me (grr hes annoying). but what the hell!!! rob just has to come back and haunt me doesnt he, and I know hes not right for me although somewhere inside I do want him back. It seems one minute i was really happy and excited about me and martin then the next it was all taken away from me by the guy who hurt me in the past! Its so f*cked up! advice please? I feel so down and angry yet confused still about rob.

i hate it when you read back over your blog. how young and niave i used to be! my lifes much better now!

i'm fed up. i revise but my eyes feel strained and hurt, so i stop and then i freak out because i'm going to fail these exams. anyone got a cure for strained eyes cause i always get it and its doing my head in.

wow i havent written in agesssss. not really got much to say either how boring... erm... ooo i applied to uni the other month i applied at chester, coventry, bangor, glamorgan and keele. if anyone has been or heard anything about any of these unis please tell me which one to choose! i got offers from them all:D so now all i need is the grades! that means my social life is down the pan!

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I'll start at the begining. My friend sarah (although she has stabed me in the back that i have writen about in previous posts) has a boyfriend called mike, until recently he worked at Iceland with me sarah, dave, soph and sophs mum (as well as other people but these are just the ones included in this). Dave and mike went on holiday a while ago with some other of their mates and today sophie swears me to secracy and then tells me that her mum told her mike cheated on sarah on this holiday. Her mum heard it from dave.

So now i have to make the decision of telling sarah or not. I feel the right thing to do is to tell her because he can't love her if he did that, and theres no saying he won't do it again. But on the other hand if i do mike and sarah will split up, mike will hate me and probably know it was dave who blabed so fall out with him, sophs mum and soph will also be in trouble with dave, but ultimately it all comes down to mikes fault but people never see it that way do they. Also there is no way of telling that sarah will actually believe me, or mike could just say dave was lieing and dave might actually say he was, or dave could actually of been lieing about it, i wouldn't put it past him..

What does everyone think i should do? I can't go and tell mike i know because then people who i found out through will still get into trouble and he might just deny it, what proof will i have? I might believe him. I can't go and ask dave if its true either because firstly we're not talking and secondly he could just deny it aswell. I need some way of getting them to tell me the truth, but without anyone else finding out that i know. Any suggestions?

also I'll add that I don't know if sarah would tell me the truth if it was me being cheated on, shes chosen not to get into trouble over telling me stuff before. But is being a good person different from treating people the same way they treat you?

but not in the religious sence, actually i've just got holes in me. One in my arm, one in my hand and a giant gash on the crease under my breast!

I don't think i wrote that i was going to have it in my blog but i had an operation yesterday to take a giant fibro somthing lump out of my breast. The holey hand is where they put a valve type thing to inject me with stuff and to put a drip if i needed it, the arm is where they took yet again MORE blood, and obviously the gash is how they took the lump out.

My friends have been good. But Dave has been pissing me off so much lately. He didnt bother to text me like everyone else did last night after my op so I text him sayin I'm still alive thanks for asking, and he reckoned he didnt know it was today, but I just told him he could of asked when it was when hes always using the excuse that he doesn't have anything to talk to me about when he ignores me on msn, he knew I was having the op because I was with him when I was having consultations and stuff. And even now he hasn't botherd to ask me about it checking I'm ok or anything. So all that stuff about wanting us to be really good friends was just bullshit. I reckon the only people he tries to keep in his life are the ones that will benefit him in some way, he wanted me there before he got back with his ex (who hes with now) but now that he dont need me under the thumb anymore to flirt with and make him feel like hes worth anything he doesn't bother with me at all. Unless hes bored in work and looking for someone to playfight with. Oh well hes a dick.

Very stressful day today I nearly cried! Pathetic really.

I had lots of awkward customers at the very end of the day. I put £100 vouchers through as cash by accident and I didn't put a home delievery through as a home delivery luckily Keith saved my bacon on the last thing by helping me out.

I hate it when you have one or two customers still casually walking round the shop at 6pm when your supposed to be closed and your stuck on the till not even getting paid for serving this last customer. The manager has come up with some ways to try and get it through the customer's heads that we are closing. He'll either stand by the door tapping it with his keys, yell down the shop to the workers 'does anyone want any shopping before I take the tills off?' or other things of that nature like 'Liam come take Sarah's till off now please!' Then we always have a little moan about them.

So people! If you don't want to be moaned about by the shop workers, keep an eye on the time for Gods sake! I don't get paid for you to be slow!